Tuesday, May 16, 2006

FAVOR TO ASK

I was wondering if you guys could do me a huge favor and check out the novel that I am working on. FEEDBACK WOULD BE GREATLY APPRECIATED. And if you could post feedback on the site, hopefully that can get me more noticed on the site and pull in some viewers that I do not know. The site is: http://www.fictionpress.com/~tokkie24
I think I finally got a first and second chapter that I am finally happy with. I would really appreciate this. Thank you guys so much!!!

(edit) you might need to know which file to look at, haha. The title of the book is "Remnants of a Life Once Divided" haha. It is the first one on the list.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

*sings* I feel good!

I must admit that I feel pretty good. I had a great day and I felt greatly compelled to share it with the cyber world. I know that you all know at least a little bit that I have had my problems and that I still am going through some hard times. I haven't been myself for a while, meaning, my work ethic isn't what it used to be. I used to be so responsible and reliable. I was the straight A student who was really active in school and worked really hard on academics and my passions. I lost that through all my turmoil and I can feel the girl that I used to be, but I'm just not her anymore. I know I can be her again, and today... I felt like I was her again. I went to my dad's office to help out because some of his employees were out. We were so busy; the phone ringing off the hook. I took quotes, endorsements, messages, ran errands, etc. It felt great. I got complimented on how well I was doing and helping out, how well I was taking care of things. It felt good to have a taste of what I was and what I could be. I felt so productive, and I feel this energy that I believe I will carry through the night. I feel like I'm going to get so much done and that I am going to succeed. Todays like today, make me feel like I can be mentally well again. I know that I will falter a bit, but it feels good to know that I can be that girl again. Hopefully, in the future, I will stay that girl.

I know that this entry was weird, but... I just had to type it out.

Monday, May 01, 2006

emergency room

I went to the emergency room last night at around 2am due to extreme back pain that wouldn't go away no matter what I did, even if I was flat on my back. My dad had to help pick me up off the floor. I was crying from the pain. I'm at home right now on the couch. I haven't moved in about 12 hours. They gave me some heavy pain killers. So, whether or not I'm still in pain I don't know, I'm still pretty tired. well... i think i'm going to go back to sleep now. goodnight.